Iron Maniacs Fitness Team

the title says it all. being a part of iron aint easy. you gotta be mentally tough and of course physically. an iron maniac is an all around fitness team created by Abdul Malek and myself. its made of different athletes from diferent sporting disciplines. to be an iron you must have strength, speed, endurance, core strength, flexibility, stamina and mental toughness with die hard determination

yday we had a fitness test and it really pushed me to my limits. we ran 4 laps, went up and arround then down the stadium seating, run another 2 laps and climb 6 floors up and down for 6 times. i was shagged boy. i really pushed myself. i couldnt run anymore, my mouth was s o dry, my body just screamed for mercy but i kept saying to myself just fuck up and finish it. and also abit of Slayer helped.

booked out

so many things happened every day of last week. damn im shagged. didnt get my trainings in, my meals were all shit and im losing lotsa money

MONDAY:
went to henderson wave for photo shoot with Malek Hans Wirda Ayu Ahmad. as usual we woke up so early in the morning for idk what and went to met malek 1st then headed to vivo for breakfast. met at 0800 and started at 1030. penat la oi. well the shoot was fun as usual but didnt take that many pic cause the other photogrpher was busy taking her gf pic. shes just in the way. anw we had 2 sessions. the morning one became afternoon. it was damn bloody hot and i was in 3 layers of clothes. Ayu can take great pic but only from the front. she's so traight minded. yeah we know we're muslims but doesnt mean you go church and help out other ppl of other races and religion makes you a sinner. i thought Islam preached about helping others. sometimes i just think that some ppl are too closed minded. anw we slacked at vivo till about 1830 cause we wanted to see the sunset and night shoot. saw Nadiah and Aidil at vivo.

TUESDAY:
i had 2 interviews. one was a second interview at a hotel then the other at boonlay. i woke up damn early to buy season parking and i was there at 0720. the 2nd one to queue. i sweat like a damn dog, i was wearing formal for God's sake. i had an interview. so my 20 mins wait was a waste cause the bloody person said the date was 24th not 21st. and i had to have a log book. i totally wasted my time there. anw went to Mal's place to get some of my stuff he printed out for me then straight to 1st interview. thought i'd be easy but hell it wasnt. damn i kena tekan like fuck sia. alright im just a trainee. im going there to get experience, get used to the hospitality line, learn new stuff. gimme a break la. everyone started out somewhere right. geez. anw i screwed my 1st interview up and went to boonlay for my 2nd. damn its fucking far but wth right, distance, pay dont matter. anw it wwent well. loved the chef. nice calm funny guy. got hired and starting 11th oct. after that shit went to M.I. to meet my baby sister Suhailahbi. i really miss her. yeah we dont talk often and we rarely meet but i treat her like my sister. met like 3 years ago at madrasah exam hall. she was complaining about the stargazing paper we got and she was like who the hell wants to see stars. met her bf Adib. to tel you the truth, he is one of the nicest guys ive met. he reminds me of Su but her good side. they both really looked great together. i wish them all the best. and i'll break his legs if he breaks her heart

WEDNESDAY:
woke up early as usual and went for my workout then swim meet with Haziq at sk. he's nice but a lil screwe up. honestly youre great but im freaked out around you. sorry but thats just how i feel. we swam for awhile. he love swimming but the spandex is not needed dude. went for lunch then home. it was a short but tiring day.

THURSDAY:
oh i hated this day. i hoped it didnt come but wth it did. my NS medical checkup. was so freaking nervous. anw it was at 0800. got there just in time. 1st station was phototaking. having taking so many shoot, nah it was a breeze. 2nd station urine test omg. this was epic. they told me Mal and few other guys to take the cup and go toilet cause inside got pic instruction. wth. anw we were joking ard like eh you need more ask me, enough?, omg mine so yellow, oops i spilled it. anw it went fine but the one after this didnt. it was a blood test. to everyone out there, i love blood but i HATE needles. thats why i dont take steroids. he strapped my right arm then i told him be gentle. he said ok but the vein wasnt. so he went to my left arm. damn i gave him a huge one. once he took out the syringe i told him wait cause i wanted to get ready, took off my glasses and closed my eye. i felt it sia. i felt it going it and the blood being drawned out. i tought it was over so i took a peek and i saw a full syringe of blood hanging the. i almost fainted sia. and when he pulled it out i almost screamed. couldnt move my arm for like the whole freaking day. anw the rest of the checks were fine. im not deaf, not blind, i dont have bad teeth, heart and lungs alright, blood pressure normal and private area fit to fuck. hahahahaha. after that went to sch cause i had IA briefing then went visiting with my ITE classmates. i spend 7 bucks for cab to bb. and it was like alrd 2330 when we left. took LAST train to amk cause it was the last station and took the 2ND LAST 165 bus home.

FRIDAY:
i spent the whole day lazing aroud then at night went to Yahaya's surprise bdae. said at was 1900 at pit 7 but no one was there. waited till about 1930 then Lisa and Larvi came. helped carried stuff and started the fire. the thing about bbq is you gotta come early to start the fire. come about 2 hours early before the guests. anw Zara's friends were all very friendly. as usual im the one doing all the bbq-ing. anw i got drunk. this was the 1st time i got drunk. damn my head was spinning trying to control it. missed the last bus so i took cab home. couldnt walk straight anw

SATURDAY:
bad hangover. asked Wan what to do cause he was a hardcore clubber, drinker, fucker. stayed at home noon cause i had a wedding to go to with Ayu. omg her friend so familiar like ive met her before and talked to her or something. damn la whats her name. went to open houses after that then home. too tired cause of being hangover. i was in a bad mood. i was angry for nothing. i have so much anger and hate inside. i dont know why. i need a release. a way to either surpress or release or control my anger. ST. ANGER

SUNDAY:
went to Farhan's open house. wanted to meet Zachary after that but Mal wanted go visiting. anything la. anw went to a few houses then back home. really had no mood to do anything

say cheese

today was an awesome day but very tiring. went to do a photoshoot with Malek, Wirda(makeup artist) and Hans(photographer). suppose to meet at 7 at Mal's place but i overslept but still i was only half hour late. Fieza, our porfessional model didnt come cause she fainted and was tired from ydays event she had. we met at hg inter then headed straight to punggol end. i asked Wendilyn join us cause she stayed nearby but she didnt wanna join in cause she just woke up an was in pyjamas and tank top. anw we took great shots at punggol end before it rained. i had a waldrobe malfunction cause i tried jumping with my black smart pants. bad idea. anw before it rained we went to airport and Wendi left for home. oor girl i bet she got drenched. offered her the poncho but didnt want it. airport was a great place to take pics. i had to put on make up cause itll look better. found out my eyelashes are long. and after Wirda curled it i look so gay but not as bad as my bro. took alot of great shots there and i was wearing my white contacts. scared the hell outta Han with it. anw went back after awhile cause Mal got free tix to USS(Universal Studios Singapore) went home, gym then im going out soon for visiting

as white as light of day

finally it arrived. ive been waiting for this day for a long time and i had to wait another 2 days. doesnt matter. it looks sick to the bone. went to town twice sending her back home. i promised mah. still havent kept 2 of my promises. sorry babes, been busy. anw this was the 1st time she asked me and my buddy out. she was totally diff that i thought she was. guess you shldnt judge someone before you get to know her. ate at a sushi bar buffet. damn i was stuffed.

this week is my 1st week of real training after fasting. doing okay but kinda sad i cant do thesame amount of reps before fasting. dont worry, strength can get back any time. form, breathing and focus are more important

like dog

bite your shoe so your shoe wont bite you. thats what i just found out. bloody new hoes give me blisters on both feet. and i walking half of orchard in pain. my socks all covered with blood. awesome.

ppl change. its inevitable. change. something you yourelf cant change. you have to adapt. but its funny when you think you still the same but not what others say. just have to live with it. accept it.

1 Syawal 1423

yeah its that time of year again. the month after ramadhan. time for forgiveness, time for tears and joy and laughter. i was really looking forward to this year like i do every other year but its different this time around. not much laughter, not much fun, not much relatives to visit. this year i thought of wearing black but they only had it in size M so i opted for white and still they dont got it in L. mummy suggested orange causee when i was a kid i used to wear orange and she said i looked cute. so yeah i got that. we didnt go visiting much today. think cause alot of family members sick or dead so yeah that sucks huh. well i hope tmr is better and sunday is the best cause imma wear my megadeth tshirt and very light blue jeans. mcm 70's siol. i still want hair like dave Mustaine. hot sak. its not his mouth thats singing, its his hair. anw Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir Batin to everyone. i know ive had my fare share of wrongdoings. im sorry that i raised my voice at you, hit you, insulted you, made fun of you and hurt your feelings. sorry to let you see my other side. every year im trying to be a better person. im only human. you know i'll always love you guys.

\m/

finally i got band t's but had to go through some shit to get it. before the Shanghai trip we gotta give $100 deposit cause they scared we injured or need medical attention so thats what the money is for. maam returned it to us a few days back and i spend it on the t's. 1st i got lamb of god, metallica, dimmu borgir and dio but i had to exchanged 3 of them cause it was kinda big. lucky the next day i went back they ppl said it was okay but the uncle whom i bought lamb of god from said something to one of the customers and they looked at me and laughed. nabeh another uncle want to die. i changed lamb of god, dio and metallica hoping to get the same one but in size M. they didnt have lamb of god and metallica so i changed it to megadeth and iron maiden. they had dio in m. BUT now its like dio kinda tight and megadeth and iron okay la. i was in a dilemma cause i scared the shirt too big and i'll nvr grow in em but its fasting month so everything is loose and big. now that ive changed em i scared cannot fir in the future. haiz what to do. and i finally got a light blue and black jeans. i feel like tearing the blue one as in i tear the knee caps and do 3 claw marks on the thigh but i scared i'll destroy it or it'll look ugly. my idea is to wear the torn jeans and wear leopard prints inside. damn thats hot. how la?

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I lost my mind, I lost all my money
I lost my life to the killing road

Megadeth - The Killing Road

i dont know what to say. i never done that shit before. i dont know what to feel. embarrassed? funny? stupid? thats how i felt just now. damn i shouldnt have done it. kinda regret it. i guess you must love to feel.

Shanghai, China

my sch was so kind. they decided to send us to shanghai for an educational trip, to learn abt their culture and history and also check out their hotels and stuff. i wasnt all ready for shanghai till that morning when i started to pack my bags. i realised i needed alot of stuff so i went shopping for shampoo, soap etc. i wasnt even really excited to go. still could meet up with my friend and go play initial d.

DAY 1: DEPARTURE AND ARRIVAL
anw i got back home at 9, got dressed and took a cab there with my parents and my bro. straight went to find my class and report my attendance and register etc. everything was on schedule. went to departure hall at 2315 sharp. we were all early that maam and sir let us walk ard so me, fahmi and Emma went to the DFS(Duty Free Shop) and bought a carton of winston which cost only $17.90. how awesome is that. anw the flight was great. i really loved the take off and landing and i watched predators again and karate kid. i was sitting right by the window and the sunrise was just beautiful. airline food was wierd. omelette with cheese, 2 begedil and 2 meat balls. farted alot on the plane. dont know why when we landed Wendilyn's bag had a huge crack like someone punched it. poor girl. anw when we arrived i was looking for a sign. any sign which could be assosiated with our group whatever.and there he was, Mr. Bill Lim was standing right infront of the arrival gate, our local tour guide. the roads of China reminded me of NS highway Malaysia. i didnt realise that we were driving onn the right side of the road instead of the left. anw the jam was kinda bad. almost 1000 new cars are on the road everyday. the 1st stop was The Oriental Pearl Tower. it was so freaking high. you could see the whole of shanghai if it was much clearer. the queue was super long but woth the wait. and there was this place that looked just like the Suntec City fountain but no fountain, just the road and the road of the fountain was a walkway. looked like a landing space of some shit. anw it was damn noisy up there. i shouted and noby heard. it was that noisy. there was this level where the floor was made of glass and you could see right down to the ground. i almost pee myself. i saw a mosque btw while otw to Cheng Huang Temple which is now a shopping centre. the entrace was so like bugis street. and there was this small part of the temple which was on water. so cool. there were no more bicycles on China anymore. just motorised bikes which cost only S$600 to S$900. fucking cheap. i want one. after that went for lunch. OMG the food was just different. imagine nasi padang on a glass turntable but authentically chinese style. i used chopsticks throughout the 5 days. i almost got pissed once cause i hated using them but what to do right? next was this building where the future of Shanghai was shown. it was amazing what they had in mind for its future. it was like New York in Asia. cool shit. every week 1 building is already being planned to build. after the whole day we finally checked into the hotel. i was shagged. we were only given an hour to freshen up and we went for dinner. same thing. all my meals were the same. as in chopsticks, no spicy foods, carbonated drink and weird foods. after that we went back to the hotel and i took an amazing shower and i slept like a baby. i havent slept like that in ages.

DAY 2: OLD & NEW
we went to a museum after breakfast. no lighter, no water. that was a first. they scared i burnt the whole museum or throw water at the painting or my water is actually acid. wth. it was okay anw the museum i mean. they had pottery dating back over 4000BC. real genuine jade. clothes from some dynasty and Tibet. weapons that were used back then. after that we went to this place which looked like old London. it was more kinda place to drinking and high class fancy restaurants. feels like at Clarke Quey. after that we went to the river front. it was gorgeoues. the buildings by the river look nothing like the others. it was as if we're in europe or something. anw next was SHOPPING. otw to the place this China dude asked me if i Singaporean. of course i was but to play safe i said no. then he said india? i said no. damn i was offended. i said i was from Thailand. i'll fucking Muay Thai him if he said India again. anw i bought myself some shoes. Vans to be exact. only S$50. and a wallet for Dad, only S$2.

DAY 3: PASTRY SHOPPING
day 3 was abit more slack and short. we went to these 2 pastry shops which were very famous there. i just watched them do their thing and bought some stuff for home. after that we wanted to go to this shopping centre known for its cheap stuff and can bargain till 80% but it was closed. so we went to the one near our hotel same thing but alot of shit happened. Sarah passed the money to the shop keeper but he aid she didnt pass any money to him. sad sia. Wendilyn lost spent her money on a bag which she could get cheaper but Tiff for some reason kept raising the price. dinner and hotel. anw back at the hotel, the girls were gossiping so i joined in cause nothing better to do other than going for massage. Wee Sin is quite a bitch but i got to know him more during this trip. he's actually a nice guy, funny, bitchy and also loves ROCK \m/ it was the last thing i would expect from him. Steel Heart, Guns & Roses, Thrash Metal, Pop Rock. i was tired so i went to bed and Fahmi wanted to stay up so when he decided to crash for the night i was already in deep sleep and he couldnt get in the room so he slept with Rong Jun

DAY 4: VENICE
we went to this place called the QIbao Waterside Ancient Town. the town was very relaxing, peaceful, slack like back in Pahang, Malaysia. i took a boat ride with the malay kids and we were suppose to tun back around after then end of the river but we didnt know so we got off and went up this big bridge. we were all waving to the rest cause we weere the 1st ones there but we had to come down cause we werent suppose to get off the boat. anw we walked ard the town and i played archery. i managed to get 3 arrows in the circle while the other 7 were either on the floor, the wall or just i missed. anw i bought this leather notebook for mummy and leather wrist bands for bros. played the air rifle. managed to shoot about 90% of my targets. i told tiff to take a few pics and i said which ballon i was gonna pop 1st before i took my hot. felt like a sniper from CS or L4D2. next was another water town called Zhujiajiao which was the same but much bigger and more popular with tourists. wanted to get whatever was there but there wasnt much choices so me and Fahmi followed the malay girls to do thier nails after lunch which Renna followed us and Mr.Lim too cause we needed help to order the foor and made sure there was no PORK/BABI. just had to eat whatever was available just as long no pork. couldnt be cautious cause it was just no pork no lard. i ate cause i needed the energy. not cause i was hungry or the food was nice. went for dinner after that at this fancy restaurant where they had some performance with a guy in a traditional costume and his mask could change. big deal. seen it before but much bigger scale. the driver was awesome. the whole time he took so many bad turns but pulled through and weieved in and out of traffic like nothing at all. i salute him uh. he also brought us around town to see the night light. it was just beautiful. after that went back to hotel

DAY 5: HOME
i dint wanna go back singapore. i could stay a few more days actually. we missed breakfast on purpose. too lazy. so like an hour before we checked out Fahmi, Rong Jun and i played pool for awhile. damn he trashed us both. then lunch and it was the last time we used chopsticks. glad to be using forks and spoons again. check in at 1415 and we took loads of pics with the tour guide and flight boarding suppose to be at 1545 but it got delayed till 1645. so we just hanged out there, took loads of candid pics, smoke. oh we had to throw away our lighter and at the smoking room, theyve got a ligher attached to the wall. so cool. we we boarded the plane we thought we're already home free but it got delayed again till 1800. damn it was boring. anw airline food is still the best. had fish, potatoes, veggies, prawn salad and OJ. loads of OJ. there was more turbulance going back cause in the morning it said something about a storm approaching Shanghai from the east side. lucky we made it through and we we reach sgp it was alrd 2345. i was so afraid of missing the last bus. i got off the plane, took a pit stop and straight went out. saw the immigration point and i took the automated one instead. saved alot of time. took my bag and saw Amy and Sarah seeing their parents and families and Yaya picked Zara up. i was alone, independant. i rushed to the bus stop hoping the last bus hasnt left yet. bus stop was empty. so i went smoke 1st to relax then took the bus cause last bus 27 was at 0030. got back home ard 0115 and quietly put my stuff down, got changed and slept. mum didnt notice i got back till sahur time. its great to be back home

i miss Shanghai. it wasnt what i expected it to be. it was old and new. western influences but strong eastern traditions. i learned lot during my trip. got closer to many of my classmates and learned a lil mandarin. i wanna thank Mr. Bill Lim for bringing us around and telling us loads of info. thanks for arranging the malay kids food and helping us understand what its like to be a part of your country. thank you for an awesome time. wish to go back some day